Good news

Good news, Robin finally got a contract for 6 months and the pay is really good. Although the down side is that it is near London so he will be working away during the week and then back here at weekends.

I know he has to do it and that it makes sense and its the right thing etc, but I am going to miss him. There's the snoring for one thing and then there is the bed hogging and the duvet stealing. Mind you, I've been told I'm just as bad as he is.

We worked out today that he has been here for nearly a month - not bad for an upset person on the end of the phone I said come on over to. But.... the thing is, that despite the stress, the children, the heat, the pmt, the job hunting, despite all of that, we have got on really well and not had a cross word. Lots of cuddles and kisses and other things, but not cross words.

I realised to that I can actually see a long distance future. Sitting in front of a fire when we are both old, playing games and doing the crossword together. Not that I want to panic him by talk about the future etc, but I wasn't able to envisage that with Cris and I think it makes all the difference.

Went to meet his family yesterday for a bbq at his sisters house. My God was I nervous before we got there. I really felt ill in the car on the way there, and wanted to go home again. I think I was expecting to have everyone look down their noses at me and be generally horrible - much like the last few families I've had to meet in this situation. But to my surprise, everyone was really nice, friendly and chatty. One of my main concerns had been the children misbehaving and showing us all up, but I couldn't have asked for them to be better behaved, they were really great


I even got a good review from his sister and mother when he spoke to them later, which was even nicer to hear. I guess I'm just used to people not liking me, and find it hard to accept that some people might actually find me ok.

Thinking about it, its almost like the last few weeks with Robin have been a lifetime in miniature and they have been good weeks. I feel like it bodes well for our relationship and how it will go. Its too soon to be planning for a retirement together or any other long term ideas, but it is nice to have that glimpse into a possible future, and for it to be good and happy.

On that happy note I'm off to bed to cuddle my teddy and dream of Robin.